The Queen's Secret

Chapter 47)

"Father." Bai Qingwan didn't follow in, but just stood outside the door and waited for her.She looked at her father with white lips on the hospital bed, and she almost tremblingly called out "Dad", she thought she must be smiling very ugly now, because she kept saying to herself on the way here, laugh, laugh .She knelt beside her father and held his hand tightly with both hands. She had thought a lot on the road just now, but when she really saw her father like this, she couldn't say a word.

"Daughter, don't cry. My daughter is the most beautiful when she smiles." Although she was weak, she still raised her hand and helped her hair behind her ears, showing a pale smile, "Dad still remembers , when I saw my daughter on TV for the first time, although there were only a few scenes, my father felt that no one was more beautiful than my daughter. After that, my daughter became more and more competitive, with more and more roles, Every time I see my daughter blooming on TV, my father feels like seeing your mother..."

"Dad, Xuerou has no one left, Xuerou only has you, Xuerou can't lose you anymore." What image, what idol burden, go to hell, at this moment, she only wants her father.

He coughed a few times, and then said, "Silly boy, Dad won't die, the doctor said, Dad still has some days, and some..."

"What do you mean? It's still some days? Which doctor said bullshit, I'm going to ask him what it's called. It's still some days!" She got up and grabbed Qin Liang's shoulders, shaking, "That doctor just wants money, right? I just want money, right? Doctor Qin, tell me who said my father still has some time to live. I want to tell him that I have money and I have money. I will give him whatever he wants..."

Seeing her like this, he stroked her face in distress but couldn't say a word.How on earth would she have to do to keep her father.She wiped her tears, squatted down and held her father's hand again: "Dad still wants to watch his daughter act, right?"

He nodded, with tears in his eyes.

"Then dad, you're going to get better. If it keeps going like this, how can you go to the cinema to watch my daughter's new movie? After my daughter's new movie is released, I still want daddy to accompany me." She finally calmed herself down as much as possible. , A beautiful smile bloomed in front of his father.She knew that her father had only two concerns in this world, one was his love for his mother, and the other was his concern for her.

It must be very painful for Dad to be like this now. He is no longer young. He is ten years older than his mother. Holding on in pain, it would be better to die comfortably.But she is so selfish, she just wants her father to accompany her a little more, a little more.

When she walked out of the ward, she didn't look at Bai Qingwan who had been waiting for her outside. Qin Liang walked with her and greeted Bai Qingwan politely.Bai Qing grasped Xue Rou's shoulder gently, trying to comfort her.But she pushed her away fiercely: "I don't need other people's pity. Thank you for driving me to the hospital. Please go back." Then she turned her head and looked at Qin Liang beside her, "Don't follow me, I want to Be alone and be quiet."

Listening to the voice of Qin Liang apologizing to Bai Qingwan behind her, she felt that she was really sad, so sad that she wanted to get angry at two innocent people.Director Xiang Jiang called back and said that he agreed to take over the role of Concubine Zhen instead of Xijia.My father likes to watch her act, because my father said that seeing her blooming on the screen is like seeing my mother. My father loves my mother so much. If my father sees her on the screen again, will he be reluctant to leave.

From noon to evening, there was no direction, no purpose, just wandering around in such a ridiculous and despondent way, the weather was getting colder and colder, the bitter wind blew on her face and poured into her neck, it was very cold, But she felt satisfied: "What should I do? What should I do." She squatted on the ground in despair, holding her head with her hands, she was really tired.

"We go home."

She heard someone say to her, let's go home.Letting go of her hands holding her head, she squatted on the ground stupidly and looked up at her. Xuerou knew that she must be in extreme embarrassment in this state. She stood upright in the dusk, with a gentle and beautiful expression, like Every time she appeared in her dreams, she had become a reality now, but she never thought that it was under such a background.

Just now in the hospital, she saw Xuerou losing her temper for the first time. She has always been obedient and scary.In the hospital, Bai Qingwan saw her wayward for the first time, but she wasn't angry at all, but felt a little more distressed.Everyone, when they are about to lose a loved one, will want to stab everyone around them like a hedgehog to show how strong they are, but the more this is the case, the more it shows that this person has unbearable grief in his heart.Xuerou wanted to be quiet by herself, so she let her be quiet, but she couldn't rest assured that she was alone, so she followed her all the time, and stayed with her from noon to evening.

Xuerou sat on the ground all of a sudden, hugged her legs with both hands, and lowered her head, regardless of whether anyone around her looked at her strangely, "I didn't mean it just now."

Bai Qingwan knelt down and rubbed her head: "You are hungry, what do you want to eat?"

She raised her head, turned her big eyes and pretended to think about it seriously: "I want to eat meat." Looking at her forced wry smile, it seemed like a thousand arrows pierced her heart.

That night, she got drunk again, even worse than the time she ran away from marriage. She desperately stuffed meat and vegetables into her mouth, never allowing herself to be idle for a moment, as if this could make herself happier: "Auntie, do you know that I have been an unattended child since I was a child. Others envy me for studying well, but why do I study well? Because I can only study hard and find topics that I don't know. Make myself feel less lonely. In fact, until now, I still can’t figure it out, my mother is most afraid of water, why did she fall into the river, and why did she just walk away..."

Drinking her spirits one cup at a time, as long as Qingwan stops her, she will get angry. First, she puts one hand on her forehead and sheds tears, and then she pours down on the table and talks about the wine: "I like you so much... What are you doing?" , do you know. Why don't you like me."

Turning the steering wheel, looking at the sleeping face of the girl in the back seat of the car through the convex mirror in front of the car, she finally let out a deep breath.

"How could I not know."