Opposite shore

Chapter 5

Chen An did not tell Zhou Xuxing that he was moving out for the time being.But he is still setting up his new home step by step, and quietly put on the agenda the plan to confess his love to Zhou Xuxing.

In his vision, he planned to tell Zhou Xuxing all his thoughts on the day he moved out, and no matter how the other party reacted, he would never bother him again.

The furniture and electrical appliances of the newly rented house are fully furnished, and then he only needs to pack up his own things before moving in.As for the matter of confession, he is still a bit at both ends. He doesn't know why he suddenly began to pursue the so-called "beginning and ending" sense of ritual, and he also knows that he may not be able to bear all possible consequences, but he still takes it. The words of confession were rephrased thousands of times in my heart, and I secretly tied this matter with decisively moving away, and stubbornly regarded it as an outburst of years of forbearance and an explanation to myself.

Just this time, Chen An thought.

Chen An woke up early on the day when he was about to move out. The instantly active brain cells made him unable to fall back asleep after he opened his eyes. He got up from the bed and packed his luggage. After tidying up the room, his brain was still busy with the mental construction before the confession.

I don't know if it's because he didn't wake up or because of other reasons. He was in a strange and trance state, and he seemed to believe that the other party would not have an optimistic response. So besides the nervousness and apprehension that he should have before confessing, there was more A desperate tragedy and determination.

He's about to know.Chen An was even a little excited in his heart.

Chen An left some things for Zhou Xuxing in a small box. They were some daily necessities that Zhou Xuxing borrowed every now and then. He also thought that if Zhou Xuxing didn't accept them, he would put them directly at the door of his house and then turned around and left.

Zhou Xuxing also seems to be very busy recently. He recently posted on Moments saying that he had just finished working overtime for a week and planned to take a good rest on the weekend, so he should be at home on the weekend.

Chen An packed up for nearly a day, carrying the suitcase in his arms, holding a heart that was about to jump out, and knocked on the door of Zhou Xuhang's house in the evening.

The people inside the door responded slowly, and the door opened when Chen An suspected that no one was at home.

"Hello? What's the matter?"

"..."

The words that Chen An had programmed in his heart for a long time and the words that were about to be spoken on his lips and the courage he needed to release when he accumulated to the apex disappeared when he saw the person who opened the door.

Standing inside the door was a young woman with long curly hair and exquisite makeup, wearing a very casual sweater coat and house slippers, communicating with Chen An politely.

Chen An's mind went blank for a moment. He used the few rationality he could control to hastily judged the relationship between the person in front of him and Zhou Xuxing, and then responded mechanically.

"I'm... Zhou Xuxing's neighbor," he tried hard not to let his voice tremble, "Come and return him some things."

After finishing speaking, he handed the suitcase in his hand to the person opposite, said "I'm sorry", and got into the elevator with the suitcase as if fleeing.

Chen An lowered his head and leaned against the corner of the elevator, his fingertips were cold, his throat and stomach convulsed uncontrollably, he thought he had predicted everything, but reality poured cold water on his face.

He carried out all the actions unconsciously, walked out of the community, stopped a taxi, reported the address of the new community, took out a water glass and drank a few sips of water, leaned on the window to look at the scenery outside, did not know how far he walked, and finally slowed down. Slowly let yourself calm down.

What is this doing.

Chen An calmly recalled his confession plan, and belatedly realized how ridiculous and absurd this matter was.

What has a beginning and an end, give yourself an explanation, in the end it is just to express your feelings recklessly, even with some vengeance.

It was impossible for him and Zhou Xuxing to begin with. It was he who almost directed and acted a scene of "I love you so much so I will leave" to complete your self-moving scene. Zhou Xuxing had no reason to bear it.

Zhou Xuxing has nothing to do with his liking from the beginning to the end, so why should he be kidnapped by morality.

He is like a child who is given a candy by Zhou Xuxing every day. When he saw that he gave someone else two, he angrily spread out the candy he had saved to the other party, saying that if you give someone two, you don’t want it. Give it to me again, I don't want it anymore.

And Zhou Xuxing didn't give him candy to make him save it and have unreasonable thoughts, and he couldn't quit Zhou Xuxing's candy.

Chen An leaned against the car window and couldn't hold back his tears. He thought he could leave in a decent way if he took the initiative, but even if he maintained his demeanor in front of others, he knew better than anyone else that the result of this one-way secret love was from one to the other. It was doomed to end without a disease from the beginning.

Zhou Xuyin came out of the bathroom and saw Hu Xin pointing to a box on the table, "Xu Xing's neighbor knocked on the door just now and brought this."

Zhou Xuyin walked over to take a look, but didn't see anything famous, she nodded and said, "Just wait for Zhou Xuxing to come back and tell him."

"Isn't it too unconscionable for you to invite me to dinner and ask your brother to cook?" Hu Xin couldn't help accusing her, "I knew we should go out to eat together."

"What's the matter?" Zhou Xuyin took a towel and wiped her hair, "Zhou Xuxing has been talking about making boiled fish for a long time, and we usually don't eat too much, so you just want to come to play with me, and show him how to cook. art opportunity."

While the two were talking, Zhou Xuxing came back with the ingredients bought from the mall. Zhou Xuyin was aroused by Hu Xin's accusation, so she asked falsely, "Can you help me?"

"Come on," Zhou Xuxing went straight into the kitchen, "you should rest."

After Zhou Xuxing cooked the fish quickly, he took a look at the message on his phone, and the chat interface was still stuck on the phrase "Are you free tonight" he sent to Chen An.He and Chen An haven't seen each other for a few days. He wanted to ask Chen An to have dinner with him this time, but he hasn't responded to the news so far.

He walked out of the kitchen and called out to Zhou Xuyin who was lying on the sofa watching TV, "Sister, I haven't been able to contact Chen An, you can knock on his door to see if he is there."

"Is there something wrong?" Zhou Xuyin asked as she got up.

"It stands to reason that he stays at home on weekends," Zhou Xuxing said, "if no one is there, forget it."

"Is it your neighbor?" Hu Xin asked suddenly, "Is it a little boy with a small face, not very tall, and pretty good-looking?"

Zhou Xuxing was taken aback, "How do you know?"

"He came over when you were going out, handed this to me and left." Hu Xin said, pointing to the box on the table.

Zhou Xu walked forward and looked through the contents of the box, "Did he say anything else?"

Hu Xin recalled for a while, "It seems that I asked me to hand it over to you, and didn't say anything meaningful."

Zhou Xuyin also walked over to have a look, "What is Xiao'an doing for you?"

Zhou Xuxing shook his head, stood up, "Let me go find him."

"Hey wait," Hu Xin called to stop him, "he should not be at home, because he left with a suitcase after delivering the things."

Zhou Xuxing failed to sort out the causal relationship, but felt something was wrong.He asked Zhou Xuyin to help him watch the dishes in the kitchen, and while calling Chen An, he went to Chen An's house and knocked on his door.

Neither side responded.

He stood at the door of Chen An's house and dialed the phone over and over again. He didn't know why he was being stubborn, but the movements in his hands didn't stop.

I don't know how many times I dialed, but finally got through. Chen An's voice seemed to have just woken up in a very quiet environment, with some indistinct hoarseness, "Hello."

Zhou Xuxing breathed a sigh of relief, "Where are you?"

The other side was silent for a few seconds, then slowly said, "At home."

"There is no one in your house," Zhou Xuxing said firmly, "I knocked on the door."

Zhou Xuxing seemed to hear Chen An sigh, "I've moved."

And Zhou Xuxing seemed to have expected this answer, "Why didn't you say it?" He asked calmly.

"When I left in the afternoon, I wanted to tell you that you were not here." Chen An's tone was still soft.

Not this, Zhou Xuxing thought, the move was not something that could be done in one day, what he wanted to ask was why Chen An hadn't mentioned a word for such a long time.

"Why did you move away?" When Zhou Xuxing asked, he still chose a question that didn't sound so sharp.

"My friend wants me to share the apartment with him," Chen An said, "It's also closer to my company."

Zhou Xuxing was dumbfounded, he felt that he seemed to know the reason, he thought of Chen An's sexual orientation, and the "person he liked" that he did not deny before, and keenly judged that the relationship between this "friend" was not as simple as Chen An said.

For the first time, he didn't know what to say to Chen An, his chest seemed to be blocked by a rock and he was restless. He wanted to say that I was free to go to your new house to play, but suddenly thought that it would be offensive, and wanted to say that I remember when I was free. When I came back to find me, I felt that I had nothing to stand for.

In the end, it was Chen An who spoke, "Seeing that you've been busy recently, I didn't tell you. If you are free, please come and play with me."

Zhou Xuxing responded casually, hung up the phone, and suddenly felt empty in his heart, Chen An was getting further and further away from him, he was sitting in the driver's seat with the car keys, but he didn't know how to catch up.