I can't say it, I love you

Chapter 3

After that birthday, Liu also went to the bookstore more often.

"Heshu..." he unconsciously wrote in a corner of his notebook.

What is wrong with me?

Liu Ye laughed at himself, tore off the paper, crumpled it up and threw it into the drawer.

Kazuki...how did he see me...?

He gently turned his face to the window, his brows furrowed in melancholy.

"Heshu, I have a question for you about Chinese language today." Liu Ye smiled and ran into the bookstore, and threw himself into Heshu's arms.

"No problem, I made coffee jelly, do you want it?" He Shu ruffles his hair with a smile, pulls him to the bar, takes out black crystal jelly from the refrigerator, pours milk balls on it, and pushes it to the stream Also in front.

"Of course." He immediately took the spoon and tasted it with relish.

"Then I'll get you something to drink first, and I'll review the exam papers later. It's so hot, you must have been restless all day, right?"

"Okay. I want apple tea."

"Got it." He playfully made a gesture of obedience.

Liu also habitually propped his chin and watched him work.

Suddenly, Ruya's pupils shrank, and a light flashed through Heshu's fingers.

"Kazuki, why do you want to wear a ring today?"

"Ah? This? A gift from a friend." He shook his fair hand and grinned.

"Well, it must be your very important friend?" He said disapprovingly.

"Why is your tone so sour?" Kazuki said jokingly.

"You said that you don't have the habit of wearing jewelry."

"That's right, but that person is very important to me." He gently took off the ring and carefully put it aside.

"what about me?"

"what?"

"Then what am I to you?" Ruya curled up his fingers.

"You are a very important friend to me." Warm hands covered Ryuya's black hair and fiddled with it.

"Important...friend?" Ruya's shoulders drooped, and for some reason, his heart was filled with disappointment.

"Yeah." Kazuki nodded and smiled.

Liu was silent for a long time.Just because of that answer.

I thought... In his eyes, I was special.

Heh...it doesn't seem to be the case.It seems that someone is more important than me...

Why is my heart throbbing like this?

"Jingle---"

The glass door of the bookstore was pushed open, and the wind chime on the doorknob swayed gently.

"Welcome." Kazuki wiped his hands and greeted him. "Wait for me." He also whispered convectively.

"Yeah. Go ahead." He picked up Kazuki's drink on the bar and brought it to his lips.

Apple tea, which I usually love most, has abnormally lost its taste today.

"Kazuki, have you put on the ring?" The sweet and shy voice made Lingliu's eyes widen.

ring……? !

Is it?

"Hmm. Look." Kazuki raised his hand and shook it.

"I knew you would look good with the ring on." The soft voice continued.

He Shu smiled and took her hand: "I have an important person I want to introduce to you."

"Important people?" She followed Heshu curiously.

Kazuki took her to the bar and patted Ruya on the shoulder.

Liu was also startled, and raised his head to look at the two people beside him.

"Qin, the person I want to introduce to you is him, Ryuya Mizuki."

"Ryuya, she is Kawashima Kan."

Qin Long is not particularly amazing, but after a long time, you will naturally find that her beauty is a kind of faint, inner temperament.Also, she has something very similar to a tree.

"Hi, I'm Kawashima Qin. Usually this guy must have troubled you a lot." Qin smiled friendly and stretched out his hand to him.

Seeing her smile, Liu also immediately understood that their similarity lies in that warm smile.

Looking at Qin's outstretched hand, Liu Ye's heart was suddenly as cold as if he had been thrown into an ice cellar. On Qin's slender fingers, there was a ring exactly like the tree!

He stabilized his disordered breath, raised the corner of his mouth, and held her hand: "Where, I asked him to help me a lot."

After getting to know each other a little bit, Ruya said, "Sister Kawashima, how did you and Kazuki meet?"

"Speaking of which, if that incident hadn't happened, he and I wouldn't have met, and we were just passers-by." She said with a smile. "I was going to take the tram to class that day, but when I was about to enter the station, I lost my ticket. When I was there and didn't know what to do, Kazuki handed me his ticket."

After hearing this, He Shu chuckled: "That guy Qin has been refusing to accept him, and he even said how he can accept other people's kindness casually. Then I told her that I can use my running car to attend classes later, and the school won't do it anyway. It’s too far away. After finally persuading her to accept the ticket, she even asked for my mobile phone number, saying that she would definitely return the ticket money to me.”

"It's supposed to be like this! How can you owe someone anything casually?" Qin pushed back as a matter of course.

"However, if it weren't for your persistence at the beginning, our relationship would not be so good now."

"Yeah." Qin lowered her face shyly, and Kazuki smiled and covered her soft hands.

"Me and Ruya, too. If we hadn't met him then, we would have given him a hand. We wouldn't be able to sit here and chat so comfortably now."

Liu also looked at the overlapping hands of the two in a daze, his mind was blank.He just felt that those two matching rings of the same style were too harsh for him to bear.

Watching the two of them chatting harmoniously, Liu also felt isolated, and he clearly felt the distance between himself and Kazuki and the others.

He looked out the window and said in a low voice, "It's getting late, I'm leaving first." Picking up his schoolbag, he stuffed all the examination papers and homework that he was supposed to review with He Shu into the schoolbag.

"Sit down again?" Qin looked at him a little disappointed.

"Yeah. I'm going home to help me have dinner with my mom. I don't want her to wait too long."

"In this case, let's make an appointment some other day, the three of us." Qin smiled.

"En." Biyu walked out of the bookstore quickly.

Because he couldn't laugh anymore.Can't smile at Qin's sweet smile.

Because, I don't want to see Heshu's gentle gaze resting on her anymore.

Because, if you don't leave, the tears will almost be uncontrollable...

Liu also raised his hand to wipe his face, biting his lower lip tightly.

This time, he won't cry.

Opening the door, he looked at the dark home.

Who is he lying to?

Who are you having dinner with?

But no one is at home now!

But now, no one...is not by his side...

Liu Ye leaned against the door panel weakly and sat down in the porch.

My heart hurts, it hurts...

Isn't breaking up just saying: "Let's break up" so simple?

Then why...?

But it's ridiculous that he was rejected in this way before confessing.

Liu Ye laughed out loud at himself, but the laughter was accompanied by a strong weeping sound.

Touching his black hair with his little hand, he recalled that Heshu's warm hands often touched his head, and said with a smile that he looked like his cat.

"It would be great if I were your cat, at least I can stay by your side every day, be cared for by you, loved by you, and slept in your hug..." Liu Ye stared blankly at the dark ceiling.

"Heshu, what should I do? I seem to like you..." He murmured, his fingertips couldn't help but prick his arm.

The sad voice, floating in the empty space, was extremely distressing.

Liu also shrank his legs and hugged himself.

It's already June...why...it's still so cold?

Despite the pain in his heart, he did it.

This time, he really didn't cry, not a single tear.

♂♂♂

"Liuya. What's the matter with you recently? You stayed after school for self-study." Qing Ying asked while drinking a drink on the way home from school.

"Is it strange that I stay here to study?" Liu Ye replied lightly.

"No, I want to say why you work so hard all of a sudden, no one can play with me anymore." Qing Ying looked at him sadly.

"You have a lot of friends, it's better if no one plays with you, and I'm not very good at sports." Liu was also amused by his expression.

"You bastard finally laughed."

"Huh?" Liu didn't understand what he said.

"You've been putting on a face for the past few days, and some people have spread rumors about Hirano and you again." Qingying squeezed the aluminum can in her hand with some displeasure, and threw it into the trash can by the street accurately.

Liu also just raised his lips helplessly.

"Anyway, I don't mind much anymore."

"Really? That's good." Hearing this, Qingying hummed a song, and stopped thinking about the right and wrong about Liuya.

The wind outside the window was blowing comfortably, and the sound of students fighting after class came from the playground, and Liu Ye's hand copying notes could not help but stop.The memory recorder of the past began to run in my mind.

"This question is..." The writing hand stopped. "Ryuya, you're in a daze again. 』

"Ah, sorry. 』

"You have an exam tomorrow and you're so absent-minded. 』He Shu tapped his head with a pen.

"Then you draw a lucky charm." 』

"OK. 』He smiled and looked out of the corner of his eye behind the star he drew on the last page of Ruya's textbook.

"meteor. 』Looking at the small picture on the page, Liu also smiled.

"Can you concentrate now? 』

Liu also nodded.

Turning to the last page of the textbook, tracing the outline of the shooting star with his fingertips, Liu also showed a smile that he hadn't seen for a long time.

"Heshu..." He murmured softly, thinking of the past, his heart began to turn sore again.

Liu also turned his face to the window, his hand resting on his chin trembling.

This is how he suppresses his pain whenever he feels like crying.

"Kazuki...I really want to see you..." Liu also lay down on the desk, as if he could hide his emotions by doing so.

Qingying on the side looked at him worriedly, but she was deeply afraid that Liu Ye would be angry if she said the wrong thing.

"Liu Ye."

There was silence in response to him.

"Don't forget about me."

This sentence full of emotion made Liu Ye's eyes widen.

He raised his head and grabbed the corner of Qingying's clothes. "Qingying."

"What's wrong?"

"help me."

Qing Ying was slightly stunned, but just smiled and said, "We are good friends."

"Qing Ying..." Liu Ye held his hand tightly, her eyes were red again.

"Ryuya?" He was startled, and quickly pulled Liuya out of the classroom.

"What happened to you?" Qing Ying asked in the stairwell.

"I..." Liu also choked up, unable to complete the words.

"Damn! Did that bastard Hirano come to bully you again?" Qingying stood up angrily, folding the paper knots with a rattling sound. "I've been wanting to beat that guy up for a long time, taking this opportunity..."

"No." Liu also grabbed him in a panic.

"It's fine if you don't, cut! I'm ready to say it."

"Qing Ying, can you accompany me to a place after school?"

"Nonsense! We are good buddies, if I don't accompany you, who will accompany you?" Qing Ying readily agreed.

"thanks."

"Is there a bookstore here? It's really secret." Qing Ying said in surprise. "Do you want to buy a book?"

"No, I want to find someone." Liu Ye said softly.

"Then go in." He pushed open the glass door.

"Yeah." Liu also took a deep breath and followed into the bookstore.

"Welcome." With the familiar voice, Lingliu also had the urge to rush out the door immediately, but he tried his best to control his desire to escape. "Liu Ye?"

"I..." wanted to say something, but there was a hot stone stuck in his throat, and he couldn't say a word.

"I've been looking for you for a long time, but I didn't answer my phone. I wanted to ask if something happened to you after you haven't come to the bookstore for so long." Kazuki smiled happily, and then noticed another boy with a head that was also tall. . "Who is this……?"

"It's our first meeting. I'm Nanami Qingkage, a classmate of Ruya's." Qingying introduced herself.

"Hi, I'm Hayase Kazuki."

Liu also turned his face slightly, he was afraid that seeing Heshu's face, his heart would hurt like being cut by a knife.

"Why did you come here today?"

"I... that..." He didn't know what to say, and it was just a sudden thought to come to the bookstore to find him.

"It's snowing." Kazuki said looking out the window. "The snow fell very early this year."

Liu also followed his gaze, and thin flakes of snow fell from the sky.

"Do you have an umbrella?"

"No, Qingying will send me off." He smiled with difficulty.

"That's good. Would you like a cup of hot tea before you go home? It will be warmer."

"Hmm...Qingying, is that okay?" He looked up at his friend.

"Just to tell you, I will accompany you to the end today." He smiled and rubbed Ranyuya's hair. .

Liu also tensed his body and shrugged his shoulders.

The one he didn't want to touch his head was Qing Ying.

What he wants is...he tree...

A sad smile floated to his lips.

He avoided Qing Ying's touch without a trace, and walked towards the bar.

"When you don't come, the bookstore is really deserted." He Shu said with a smile while making black tea.

"Did Senior Sister Kawashima come to accompany you?" When he said that, his heart tugged hard.

"I'm so free because I already have a school. She still has to prepare for the college entrance examination, how can she have time to come here?"

Liu also looked at Kazuki's gentle expression, but this expression did not belong to him...

"The black tea is ready." Kazuki put two cups of steaming tea on the table. "Nanami-san, let's go together."

Liu also stretched out his fingers to lightly touch the cup noodles.

"This cup is really beautiful." Qingying blew on the hot tea, and noticed the black mug in front of Ruya.

"This is from Kazuki." Speaking of him, Liu couldn't help but soften his voice.

In the black night sky, silver-white shooting stars glide across.

That soft voice.

That warm hug.

And... the memory that belongs to their first acquaintance...

"Ryuya? Did something happen?" Kazuki asked with concern.

Liu also raised his head, seeing his worried expression, the sourness from the tip of his nose welled up crazily.

"Sorry, I'm going home first." He grabbed his schoolbag and ran out of the store without looking back.Kazuki's worried cry couldn't make him stop.

"Sorry, then I'll leave first." Qing Ying politely thanked her, and hurriedly chased her out.

"Liuya!" Qing Ying stepped forward, chasing the person in front.

Putting his hand on Ruiya's shoulder, he panted.

"What the hell did you do?" Qing Ying turned his body to face herself a little angrily.

"Qingying...what should I do..." Liu Ye turned her face away, her face soaked in tears was even more reddened by the cold wind.

Qing Ying was taken aback for a moment, then smiled slightly, and wiped away the tears on his face with her fingers: "I will help you."

"But he doesn't like me!" Liu Ye pushed his hand away, shouting in grief. "He likes girls, but I'm different!"

Looking at Qingying's astonished expression, he smiled bitterly: "Even I feel disgusted, I can tell when I see the eyes of En looking at me. But He Shu, who clearly saw me being kissed by En, did nothing explain……"

"Hirano-en?"

Liu also looked at Qingying, puzzled by his gloomy expression.