stonecrandall C84 Emotions on New Year's Eve
C84 Emotions on New Year's Eve
In high school, this feeling of excitement and helplessness gradually subsided. Sometimes it seemed to him that 365 days were too short, like a fleeting March peach blossom.
It is impossible for me to forget that I was born at the age of 24 in a flash, even if it is my birthday. However, the word "New Year's Eve" was like a green olive in my heart. It didn't matter if I was bitter or bitter, or gentle, or unrestrained. I couldn't get excited, nor could I get excited. I no longer had the feeling I had when I was a child.
Twenty-four years like the water, how many times does life disappear? This year's New Year's Eve, looking back at a year's journey, I can't help but sigh, facing the pale and dull, but even more confused and confused!
Bessemer poet Gao Shi Yun: Hotel cold lights alone sleepless, guest of what turn sad? His hometown was a thousand miles deep in thought tonight, with another year in the frost around his head.
At this moment, my heart was in my heart.
That's right, life has to be broken down several times. Tonight, it might really be filled with gentleness and a hint of worry, settling the feelings of a maple leaf drifting down!
I, who was a scholar, the ordinary me, the poor me, the common me, the common me, could only place my hopes on every coming year. I could only hope that every year, everything would be better, that I would be healthy, peaceful, harmonious, and that I would be able to write better articles, achieve greater results, and gain a calmer mentality …
Hesitating, I stared out the window at the darkening gray sky, listening to the growing wind. What was she doing now? Was she in the Xiejing or the sea? She didn't have any relatives in this world, so other than Ni Ni, where would she spend New Year's Eve? Who would have been with her? Was there anyone who would serve her a bowl of steaming dumplings? Was there anyone who wished her a happy new year, was there someone who would guard the new year with her, was there anyone who would listen to the New Year's bell with her …
Maybe, at this moment, what she missed the most were her parents and brother, who had been sleeping in the sea for a long time. They had left her alone in this world, enduring the sorrows and sorrows of the human world, loving and hating each other, enduring hardships and hardships …
With melancholy and melancholy in my heart, I walked out of the office and returned to my dorm. Qing Er must have already wrapped the dumplings, waiting for me to celebrate New Year's Eve together in my simple and warm dorm room, as well as New Year's Eve for both of us.
On the way back to the dormitory, the wind had stopped and a heavy snowfall had begun to fall from the sky.
After returning to the dorm, Qing Er had wrapped the dumplings well indeed. After cooking four good dishes, the dorm released a rich fragrance and warm and warm air.
Qing Er also bought a few balloons, which were floating around on the roof.
Seeing that I had returned, Qing Er cheerfully threw himself onto my body and hugged my neck. "Big brother, everything's done, we'll be waiting for you to come back …"
Looking at Qing Er's blushing, smiling face and happy and satisfied eyes, my heart stirred. I hugged Qing Er's body and softly whispered into his ear, "Dearest, today is New Year's Eve for both of us. Today is New Year's Eve for both of us.
"Mm …" "Elder brother belongs to both of us. Everything belongs to both of us. We will never be separated, we will always be together …" Qing Er muttered in my arms.
I let go of Qing Er. Holding Qing Er's face in my hands, I lightly kissed Qing Er's eyes, "Qing Er, next year, your eyes will be even brighter, purer, and more beautiful …"
Qing Er opened his eyes and looked at me. I saw that Qing Er's eyes were filled with happiness and emotions.
Qing Er placed my hand on her cheek: "feng-ge, my eyes are only bright for you, only because you are pure, just because you are beautiful …"
I laughed, and so did Qing Er.
Then we sat down and began the New Year's Eve for both of us.
Qing Er opened a bottle of white wine for me, and she opened a bottle of red wine.
Qing Er raised his wine cup and looked at me: "My blood brother, little sister offers you a cup of wine. It's the new year, I wish everything goes well for my blood brother next year, and his good health … Big brother, you are the pride of Qing Er, and Qing Er is proud of you … "
"I'll give you the same blessings, Qing Er..." Looking at Qing Er's blissful smile, I felt a wave of warmth in my heart.
Qing Er and I clinked glasses, finished.
"Elder brother, this is the first time since we were young that we have experienced the New Year together …" This is the first time since I was young that my parents didn't stay home to celebrate the New Year... Happy New Year with you, I'm so happy, so happy, so happy … " Qing Er looked at me gently and said.
"Silly girl, in the future, we will always be together for the new year. In the future, our days will still be long …" I said to Qing Er.
Qing Er looked at me happily and repeated my words, "That's right, in the future, we will always be together for New Year's. In the future, our days will still be long …"
I know that the current Qing Er is definitely happy.
Seeing Qing Er's happiness, I was very pleased.
From time to time, however, I felt vaguely uneasy.
That night, I felt a sudden urge to drink.
I drank a bottle of white wine, Qing Er drank a few cups of red wine, his face turning even redder.
I still wanted to drink, but Qing Er didn't let me drink anymore. He gently took the bottle away from me and started to pour dumplings.
After eating and sleeping, after tidying up, Qing Er and I half laid on the bed, sat under the warm blanket and started to watch the Spring Festival Gala.
Qing Er snuggled into my embrace, meekly like a cat, quietly watching TV.
The midnight bell finally rang. The world, which had been quiet just a minute ago, suddenly seemed like it had exploded. The firecrackers roared in unison, issuing hysterical roars in the snowy night sky.
"Elder brother by blood, happy new year …" Qing Er, who was already drowsy in my arms, was awoken by the sound of the firecrackers.
I suddenly felt very stuffy, and my brain suddenly felt very restless.
"Qing Er, I have a headache, I drank too much. I need to go out and get some fresh air, I need to wake up from the drinking …" I gently put Qing Er down, covered him up, got off the bed and dressed him up. Then, I gently opened the door.
Outside the door was a world wrapped in silver. The sky was covered with snow that fluttered in the New Year's Eve sky, as if it was a new year's harvest.
I gently closed the door and walked out, stepping on the thick snow.
Every family was watching the New Year, celebrating New Year's Eve, watching the Spring Festival Gala, and the music from the TV was transmitted to the street and to me as I walked in the snow.
"On a certain day in a certain month, it's just like a broken face. It's difficult to say goodbye and let everything go away. This isn't an easy matter, but we all don't cry …"
Suddenly, the familiar music and melody reached my ears.
"Just Like Your Gentle", I don't know who's singing this song on TV.
My heart suddenly pounded. The past, the past, the face, they all flashed one by one …
I listened, standing in the snow.
"Up until now, I can't stop reminiscing about you. I miss you, I miss the past. I hope that the sea wind will rise up again for the sake of your gentle hand …"
Listening to this melodious and familiar song, I felt as if I had returned to that night, seeing that person again, dancing with her once more …
I looked up into the snowy sky. What was she doing now?
Suddenly, as if I remembered something, I walked to my office, opened the drawer of my desk, took out my BB machine, and opened it.
Sure enough, there was a message on the BB machine. It was hers.
I knew she would send me a message, and so she did.
I read her message eagerly.
"Jiang Feng, the bell for the new year has rung. Happy New Year, I wish you a happy new year. Liu Yue "
This was the text message Liu Yue had just sent over. At this moment, she was still awake, and at this moment, she was far off in the distance.
Where would the distant place be? It was definitely not Jiang Hai, then it must be Xiejing?
Even though the Xiejing was far away, it wasn't too far away. Could it be that Liu Yue went to an even further place to spend New Year's Eve?
Where would Liu Yue go? In this world, she didn't have many places she could go.
I thought gloomily.
Suddenly, my heart quivered, could it be that Liu Yue went to Zhejiang, to the Cangnan, to her birthplace, and to the place where her loved ones would sleep forever?
Thinking about this, I felt very sad.
I suddenly had the idea of writing something.
The diary had long since been burned by me, and I no longer kept a diary.
I took out my pen, touched a sheet of printed paper on my desk, and suddenly began writing in a calligraphy pen.
Today was New Year's Eve, what should he write? For you, for me, for our past …
I have received your blessing and do not know where you are, but I know that you are not asleep at this moment.
And I, at this very moment, in your office, in front of your desk, where you've sat, facing the lamp, facing the computer you've used, keeping watch …
More than twenty people had experienced the New Year's Eve in their lives. It was as if all the New Year's Eve in their lives had gone far, had been forgotten, and all their steps in the past were all for the sake of reaching the present.
At this point of time and space, for the first time, he felt that life was so clear and destiny was so helpless.
I saw it, fate, waiting for a thousand years of infatuation, turned into two seeds of life scattered to the human world.
I saw it. A year ago, when I was still in my infancy and didn't know much about the affairs of the world, and you were mature, beautiful, and kind, our hearts hid each other's images. We were looking forward to that unforgettable experience we shared …
But for a year, without looking at each other, we hurried on, staggering in two different directions in the current of fate.
We will continue to walk on, maybe even walk through a lot of wind and snow, a lot of spring and autumn, a lot of New Year's Eve, going further and further away …
At the end of my life, I don't know if we can meet again.
How he wished that this world had no power, no mortals, no oppression, no encirclement …
The bell of the New Year has rung, my former dearest person, bless you, bless us, bless all the love and pain of the past, bless all the separated bodies and souls...
At this point, I threw the pen away and covered my face with my hands...